GlossyVeneer

I was very excited when I woke up this morning. Today I was going to start working my new 8-5 work schedule. When I started telecommuting I worked 7-4, to match up with the 8-5 my co-workers in Utah were doing. But I’ve been miserable for several years, and my job is one of the primary reasons I’m so unhappy.

I don’t talk to people during the day, I feel rushed in the mornings, I’m isolated. I’ve been taking steps to reclaim my happiness and one of them was to ask my boss if it was okay if I worked different hours. I don’t know why I worried about this, I’m pretty sure he’d let me do pretty much whatever I wanted as long as I got the work done. Or even a fraction of the work that I’ve done over the past 8+ years in the job. I’ve spoken to him, he agrees my mental health and happiness are big factors in making me a good employee.

So anyway… today was going to be the first day of doing an 8-5 schedule since I’ve been telecommuting. My mind was full of the possibilities… all the things I could get done in that extra time.

• I could go for a run
• I could shower after the run
• I could even fix my hair after the shower
• I could make some breakfast
• I could sit at the table while I eat, reading blogs or magazines or a book
• I could do some work on a freelance project

Oh yes, I was delirious with the possibilities. I thought I could enter my work day feeling calm and ready to tackle the tasks at hand.

So I got up, I went for a run, I stretched, I showered… and then the day just started to crumble. I know they’re little things, but they just started to feel like mountains. Insurmountable mountains.

I forgot to shave in the shower
A giant new zit SPONTANEOUSLY appeared

Annoyances, yes. I went downstairs with wet hair to make some breakfast. Some food should make me feel better.

But the blender decided my breakfast would be better off all over the counter.

The blender started leaking out of the bottom. And of course, I wasn’t standing right next to it at the time. I was on the other side of the room, getting my vitamins. And then it started to make weird sounds. So I went over to turn it off, and was greeted with the mess.

And that stupid mess took about 30 minutes to clean! It was thicky and goopy and probably would have been delicious to actually consume, but was highly annoying trying to clean it out of the tiny nooks and crannies of a blender and sopping it up off the counter.

After all that was cleaned up, it was 7:59. Work time. My hair was still partially wet and partially drying into the ugly flipping pattern it seems to have developed. My breakfast was once again, consumed at my desk. It consisted of various things that I could eat while typing… granola bar, apple slices and a hard-boiled egg. Highly unsatisfying.

Sigh… maybe tomorrow will be better.

*If you’re curious about the color of my breakfast smoothie, it was made with banana, spinach, soy & almond milk and chocolate-flavored Amazing Grass Amazing Meal. I recently reviewed the Amazing Grass lineup of products on my running blog. Good stuff.