Makin’ Faces
I’m self-conscious about my appearance. What woman doesn’t want to look nice? (Or man, for that matter… let’s not be too gender-biased!) And lately I’ve been feeling even more awkward for several reasons (some of which I’m still grappling with about disclosing on the blog).
I look on in envy as other bloggers post photos of themselves, seeming so self-assured, gutsy, confident and all of them are so lovely! And that’s part of the reason why I did my dumb little Photo Booth challenge last year and I am attempting it again this December. Taking daily photos of myself using Photo Booth on my Macbook makes me record a small segment of my life and hopefully stop looking at myself with such a critical eye. Instead of noticing every little flaw that is probably imperceptible to others, and instead looking at myself as a “whole”.
So when OMSH issued a challenge to post a photo of yourself making a funny face, I took a deep breath and told myself that I should do that. Plus it would give me something to use for my daily Photo Booth pic.
So there it is: big, bold and right out there for everyone to giggle over. Go ahead and giggle, it makes me chuckle too. And I’m starting to like the picture. Not because I think, “Wow.. that photo makes me look beautiful.” but more because I think, “Wow… that photo makes me look like a fun and goofy person.”
And I really am a fun person, I’ve just morphed into a much more reserved version of that person as I deal with all my troubles (many self-imposed burdens that I really shouldn’t have to carry) and I want to get back to the more carefree person I once was.
December 6th, 2007 at 1:57 pm
I would totally hang out with you and you are too hard on yourself.
TOO, TOO Hard
As am I. :)
December 6th, 2007 at 2:01 pm
Ditto what Heather said. And we WILL hang out one day, oh yes, we will!
And we will rock the universe because you. are. awesome. (I can totally tell.)
December 6th, 2007 at 5:53 pm
Ditto on all counts…and I ALWAYS make funny faces…I’m a tongue-out kinda gal.
December 6th, 2007 at 7:16 pm
OMSH: I’m really trying to not be so hard on myself. But then I criticize myself and I’m hard on myself for being hard on myself. It’s a never-ending cycle! AAAAAGH! :-)
Loralee: Oh yes… we will hang together. Oh yes.
Retro: I love the pictures of you with your family on your Flickr site. You make some great faces!
December 6th, 2007 at 11:06 pm
aaaaaahhhh! Nice. I am definitely less reserved than I was in high school (or at least I think I am) but I pretend to be even more outgoing on my blog than reality would prove.
December 7th, 2007 at 2:11 am
Ditto to the others!
Can I hang with you too?
Also? Those photos I post? Take me about fifty tries until I find one that I like :)
December 7th, 2007 at 8:24 am
Tearese: The shield of the blog is always comforting, huh?
Angella: Hell yeah you can hang with me! We’ll have a big kick-ass bloggers party! I guess I don’t have the patience to take that many photos of myself, but I should try it. You always look smokin’!
December 7th, 2007 at 8:37 am
Nice werk sistah!
Way to get yourself out there. I think you have plenty of self-confidence from my view point over here. :D
And I send Angella. It takes several many takes to get that one pic that is worth posting. :)
December 7th, 2007 at 11:44 am
Little Miss Mel: Thank you for… the uh… vote of confidence in my self-confidence? That was a goofy sentence! You’re awesome!
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December 10th, 2007 at 11:01 am
I loved your funny face! And I’ve been really enjoying your December PhotoBooth shots, too. :-)
December 10th, 2007 at 3:46 pm
Bethany Actually: Thank you! The PhotoBooth stuff is kind of a goofy thing, but it’s a little fun too.